Boredom

Remember a couple months ago when Adam had that big project he had to work on and I hardly saw him for over a week? This week has been a lot like that week was. He's worked late every night this week.

It stinks.

Again, I am so very proud of him and the work he does BUT........

I miss him.

He's promised me that tomorrow (Friday) he'll be home before me and that we'll go out - just the two of us. He talked of spanking and sex too but quite honestly, I feel so disconnected from him that I can't seem to find any interest.

I hope that changes once I actually get to be with him.

I mean really... remember my post on Sunday? It was a letter to him? Yeah. That. Yesterday we talked on the phone briefly as I drove home from work. He apologized. He didn't even read it till yesterday morning. I hate it when he's busy.

Again... I say this for my own benefit. I AM proud of him and the work he does. I wouldn't want it any other way. I just get bored and lonely during his big project times.

It's okay. It won't - can't last forever, can it?

It's rare for me to not even care about spanking and sex. I would just like an evening with him home. The house is quiet... too quiet. Granted, we do our own thing quite a bit when we're home in the evening. I get on here. He goes to his recliner with a load of paper work to do. And as I roam around from blog to blog or sit here and type as I am doing now there's just something about hearing him laugh in the next room at whatever old sitcom he happens to be watching. It's usually either an old episode of Friends or Everybody Loves Raymond.

But he's here. And I don't have to go to bed alone when he's here.

Now wait....

I'm not whining.

I'm not complaining.

Honest. I'm a big girl and can handle some time alone. I am just trying to express how reassuring and comforting it is to have him here... how much I appreciate when he's home... even when we're doing absolutely nothing.

Okay so maybe I am whining and complaining a bit but when the rest of the world gets more of your SO than you do...

Let me rephrase that: When the world gets more of MY SO than I do it's frustrating.

So what do you think?

Do I need spanked or what?

Lucky for me, he's already promised some play time this weekend. We've got tomorrow night but I think he has to work on Saturday this week. Bummer. There's always Sunday though. And since this is Thursday evening, I would say that things are starting to look up a bit.

Keep checking back. I'll let you know how it all unfolds. I could really go for some good old fashioned silly fun. You know... like the good old days when the crop fell apart.

I'm fine. Honest. I'm just missing my man.

I bought a new outfit for work though. Spending money always helps one feel better, huh?

Enough rambling. I'm going to go see what everyone else is up to.