A Rant and The Weather

Have you read Elis' Rant? If you haven't read it yet, go read it, then come back. I've read it three times and each time I've heard her voice a little bit louder than the time before.

And now it's my turn to do a bit of ranting myself.

I think I'm part of the cause of her rant. Why would I think that? Well cuz she told me so. Even if she hadn't told me, I would have known that I was at least partly responsible for her inspiration by the things she said in it.

Before you get your shorts in a knot, NO Elis did NOT get any sort of nasty gram from me via email. What she got was an email of concern. It contained my own doubts of "what would happen if I was found out?" She was ranting for me. She was angry for me. And I love her for it so don't think I caused it in a bad way. It wasn't like that at all.

But I get this way sometimes... paranoid. Worried. Scared. And then I start feeling as though it's just a matter of time before someone finds out and causes me grief.

I feel kind of bad though cuz some of you out there thought Elis had received a not so nice email. And I feel bad because she got so angry. Oh, no... not at me. She is angry at the society in general who would laugh at us... who would fire us from our jobs...who would do God knows what else. Again, she was ranting FOR me.

And I feel her anguish. I fear my superiors would assume that if I like spanking then I must therefore condone it when it comes to children and gee, maybe they better get me out of the classroom before I spank one of them and the school ends up with a law suit. Hopefully that would not be the case. And actually I'm pretty certain that it wouldn't be because we have a teacher who is known for practicing BDSM. And you know what I say to that?

"You go, girlfriend. Have a darn good time."

Yes, it's a fear. It's a very real fear. Would they see the parallel reasoning and logic behind this:

• I used to smoke but never lit up in the classroom.
• I have a sex life as do they but would never have sex in the classroom.

Would they see that what I do in my private life is just that? Private.

Would they see that freedom of speech means I have every right to this blog and my friends here? I mean think about it. Most things I talk about here would be fine to talk about - no not in a classroom - but anywhere in my PRIVATE life. Is it private when I am publishing it here where the whole world can read it? Yes, and no I suppose. But it's mine. I have my right to free speech. Or at least I should. I think I do. Maybe I don't.

I dunno.

I honestly like my bosses. They are great people. You would never catch me saying one bad thing about any of them. No, they aren't perfect. Far from it. We've all heard though of cases where the boss finds out there's a blog and the next thing you know that employee get the axe, the pink slip, the ol' heave-ho. Am I the only one to fear this now and then?

I'm ranting and rambling.

I like to be spanked. I like to talk about my sex life with like minded folks. So what? So freakin' what? I don't advertise the spanking part anymore than I advertise the sex part openly to just anyone because that's not appropriate. But here? It IS appropriate. Like Elis said, if you weren't interested in what I have to say you would not have read this far.

I'm married.

We have sex.

He spanks me.

It's consensual.

I have online buddies who I enjoy talking to about these sorts of things. If anyone out there doesn't like that they don't have to read my blog. I don't read blogs about golfing. Yawn. I don't read blogs about politics. Bigger yawn. It's a right to NOT read just as much as it's a right to write.

I only read my like minded fellow bloggers. If you are reading this to catch someone in what you think is something perverse, why don't you go find something better to do? We're happy here. Anyone is welcome here. But don't change me. Don't condemn me. If you can't enjoy my blog, that's OKAY but allow me to live my life peacefully.

Back to Elis... not to pat myself on the back cuz I for sure am no one special, but as she listened to my email fears I did not realize that I was placing a fear in her. I did not mean to do that and I'm sorry but you know what? Her fear feels really really good because do you know what she said she was afraid of? She was afraid that I was about to up and disappear. Can you believe that? If I didn't feel bad for making her feel that way, I'd probably be amused.

I told her that I would have trouble doing that because she has too many email addresses for me amongst other things. And I'm like her, this has improved my marriage immensely and it's a lot cheaper than counseling. So be it.

I'm okay.....

And so are you.....

Now, onto something a bit different... did you happen to catch this post of Grace's? I decided to try it myself.

I'm lightening.

Say what??

Yup. I'm lightening.

I'm okay with that except for the random violence part. Excuse me?

Me?

Violent?

Are you kidding me?

Anyhow......

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?