The Night Before We Left

I couldn't help it.

There were many last minute details and things to take care of. It - feeling overwhelmed - was enough to make anyone cranky. I thought I had remembered everything. I had things piled by the door ready to load into the car.

But the stress.... did I remember my meds? Where was the money? The Credit cards?

And then there was the stress of making sure all electrical things were turned off.... the cats had to be cared for... the mail....

Stress. I guess this sort is necessary in order to achieve the relaxation desired.

And you know, Adam is getting better and better at this lifestyle. He decided the night before we left that I was entirely too cranky for his taste. He said something about needing to start the vacation off right.

Shortly after his decision he was sound asleep. And I was at the computer sitting on a pillow.

It amazes me how far he's come. When I first made it known to him that I wanted/needed this lifestyle he was rather.... well... wimpy about it.

Don't get me wrong. I do appreciate the fact that he didn't want to hurt me but really I knew it was supposed to hurt. I WANTED it to hurt. And in time he has come to see that.

And you know what else? He's starting to see that it's within his power to adjust my mood with a few... or many... good hard swings of nearly anything. And it amazed me as I sat there that night before we left tying up loose ends on the computer just how much my mood had changed.

The best part is knowing that he sees it now. He knows that bad, cranky mood swings can easily be dealt with. He is able to tell now when I need spanked and that is so awesome. He even sees it sometimes before I get that "please spank me" feeling.

So I'm rambling but my point here is that before the vacation even started he had me over his knee.... right where I belong and long to be.

More tomorrow!!!