Blog That

I'm not sure exactly where this post will go. I'm feeling random today.

At the end of the trip we spent the last two nights at a beautiful old inn where we celebrated our wedding anniversary. It was calm. Peaceful. There was not much to do but spend time with each other watching the river go buy. Literally, we could spit in it from our balcony window. We didn't. We just could have if we'd wanted to.

We did take a morning and travel to a quaint large small town (or maybe it's a small large town) about 40 miles from where we were staying. That was fun. We walked across one of our country's major rivers on a foot bridge. That was a bit scary. I don't like heights. I also don't like water if I can't stand in it and see my toes. In other words, if it's not swimming pool blue, it kind of freaks me out. Still it was fun.

We ate lunch at a tavern that specialized in fried bologna sandwiches. Okay so it's not the best healthy thing to eat for lunch but it sure was good. The bologna was about a quarter inch thick and topped with tons of things. Good stuff.

It was just a nice, nice trip filled with nice random moments.

The room was beautiful complete with a jacuzzi large enough for a party. Although I don't think you'd want more than two people in it. There was a sign posted that said something about "to avoid embarrassment don't sit in front of where the water flows into the tub" ...not the jets. It didn't mean that. It meant when you fill it or run the jets and the water cycles. Apparently if you sit in front of those two places the water backs up and floods the dinning room below and they have to call and tell you to move away from those danger areas.

Needless to say we were plenty cautious about that. Remember that "third toy" I promised to blog about? Yes? Well I'm getting to that... planning it for the day after tomorrow. Anyhow. after we used this third toy for the first time we got in the tub and stayed there for a long time..... until the water got cold. It was nice. We talked and laughed and just enjoyed the time.

The walls were thick so the spanking that first night was uninhibited. That was when Adam's comfort level with the crop began to settle in. He delivered blows at varying intensity levels and for me, that's the ultimate... to just not know what's coming next.

On our last morning, as we lay in bed talking about the final leg of the trip home and how very MUCH we did NOT want to go home Adam was the first to make the effort to get ready to leave. I guess maybe you had to be there but we got to talking about this blog and he told me that he's so glad that I didn't hide it from him and that he's able to read it every day. Yeah, me too. But then as he got out of bed, he smacked my bottom hard and said "Blog THAT!!"

I guess that was special to me because there was a time when we didn't get along. This went on starting at about year 11 of our marriage. He seemed to resent and want to control every move I made. Finally about year 20 he woke up and realized how he was on the edge of destroying us and that wasn't at all what he wanted. It wasn't what I wanted either but I didn't know how to tell him... to get through to him. It wasn't for lack of trying, that's for sure. I think maybe it was just something he had to see on his own.

When he finally woke up and started to make changes, I didn't trust him one bit. It took over a year of him behaving perfectly before I began to relax. We talked about how there was a time I couldn't have let him know about this type of blog. I would have had to hide it from him. He would have found out. We would have fought about it. It's only been recently that I've been able to NOT tense up and feel the old suffocation when I see him reading it or if he asks me about something in it.

It's nice. This blog is actually just one more thing that he and I can openly share and I'm so very glad. It's nice to have him see what I'm truly trying to say about our relationship. It's nice when he doesn't quiz me about things I've said in it and make me feel that I'm being interrogated. We've come a long, long way baby!! I love him so very much. I've said something similar before but I want to say it again... even though I always loved him, I for sure have not always liked him. I do like him now. He's my bestest bud.

I guess too it saddens me to think what many couples miss out on. Now I know... there are some times when there's no option but to divorce, but I also know that many couples call it quits because they think it's over when they hit rough spots. Our rough spot was 9 years long followed by 2 years of uphill climbing (which is when I began to like him again). But here we are now free falling miles above the mountains and the view is spectacular.

Tomorrow... August twenty ninth... that's the day.

Happy 25th babe, I'd do it all over again if you asked.



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And yes, the pictures were taken on this last part of our trip.