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Warning: If you are sick and tired of coming here hoping to read about something related to spanking but then getting weight loss stuff instead, you might want to skip this post. It's okay. I understand.


I'm not sure if there's a line between bragging and just stating information but DANG... I have lost 127 pounds or so at this point. That's a LOT of weight!!! That's a fairly normal sized woman. Try carrying that around all day!! No wonder my back, feet, knees all hurt like heck!!!


My life has never been better. I shoveled snow this morning. I did our entire sidewalk, the walk from our porch to the sidewalk and then started on the driveway. Adam felt guilty I think because he asked to take over three times before I let him. I only let him because I didn't want him feeling like I was intruding on his territory. I mean I wasn't even breathing heavy. I could have shoveled all day. How totally AWESOME is that?


Changes. There have been so many changes.


Before surgery we went to a psychological workshop which was required by my surgeon. It was interesting and funny.


Two stories I remember from that night:


1) The woman presenting to us that night said a few years ago a man came into the office. He was signing in for an appointment with the surgeon. Wanting to make conversation and make this morbidly obese man feel comfortable and at ease she asked, "So, what's your goal?" Expecting to hear a number she got an earfull when the man said "Well, I'll tell ya what.. I haven't seen my dick in 15 years."


Nice goal.


2) A woman who had been morbidly obese her entire life had trouble coping after losing weight. Turns out she was one hot looking babe but who knew with all that extra weight hanging around. Literally. One day she was walking down a city street when a construction worker wolf-whistled at her. In her mind she heard "Hello there, young lady. You are quite attractive. I'd like to get to know you better." She turned around and went back to the man who held up his hands saying "hey, lady, I didn't mean anything by it.. I'm happily married." The woman left in tears and
humiliation.

I so relate to things Jess said in my comments yesterday. Who am I? What do I do now and where do I go from here? When people quit commenting on how good I look will that mean I don't look good any longer? Am I really attractive to Adam? Does he not see the saggy arms? The drooping gut? The flat boobs that have to be rolled up now? The wrinkled butt?


The man has to be blind, pretending to not see, or he honestly doesn't see. How could he not see? It ain't pretty.


People do respond differently to me now. One day as I stood in a hallway at work talking with three men and laughing I couldn't help but think "this wouldn't have happened a year ago." But I'm not so sure it's them. I do have a bit more confidence and less shame these days. Maybe it's me. I'm fully aware of that possibility.


Don't get me wrong... I'm THRILLED but everything is different. I dress differently now. I talk differently. I think differently.


BUT I'M STILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


How can I be so different but at the same time be so very much the same?


Wanna see some pictures? Now I can't show you my face but I can show you the rest of me....


Here's me at around 290 pounds.....And if you look really close you'll see PK's elbow to the right side of the picture. This one was taken at our first meeting in June. The clothes are size 3X.... I think the capris were a size 24 or 26.




This next picture was taken in October. I had lost nearly 40 pounds prior to surgery, 40 pounds since, and was weighing about 215 then. The shirt is an XL and the jeans were a 16.


And this last picture was taken at about 4 months after my surgery. The jeans are a 12. I'm now in a 10 but they are getting a bit big. I'm buying a pair of 8's this weekend. In this picture I was weighing somewhere around 185. Now I'm weighing about 165 and like I said, those size 8 jeans are coming soon.

It's been quite the journey and I'm so excited that you all have come on it with me. I know it's not over yet, that - really - it's only beginning. It's just that it's been some mighty rapid changes. I so appreciate Jess' explanation in yesterday's comments. Things are wonderful and getting better every day!!!