Poor Adam

For months Adam has tried everything.

Soft and sweet: "I can't wait to make love to you."

Hard and sexy: "I'm going to spank your ass with whatever I can get my hands on."

Nothing has worked.

Let me explain.

Back in mid May I was hit with the period from hell which lasted six weeks right on through our vacation. It all came to an end finally with a D&C on July 2nd but by then I had my surgery date for my Gastric Bypass so I was a nervous wreck and just not focused on sex and spanking.

It may not appear so but weight loss surgery (WLS) is the most stressful thing I have been through in my life. Some are supportive: "I'm so excited for you!! You're going to do GREAT!!" Others are negative: "Don't you know people DIE from that surgery? I'll be praying that you come to your senses."

It all adds up to two words: Stress. Doubt.

And now, the surgery is behind me. I have never felt better. I still am just not interested in sex and/or spanking though.

Poor Adam.

He's trying not to be cranky but I can see that it's getting to him.

He's trying to be patient but I can see that his patience is wearing thin.

I was almost there a week or so ago. I mean it had been four weeks since surgery and I'm feeling good and it all started to fill my mind again. And then? Yup. Of course. THAT time of the month hit so I put it out of my mind. I hold my breath when that happens now because of the hell I've been through with it. Although a bit long, it was not a nightmare.

Finally yesterday it came to an end and last night?

My libido came back from out of no where. I mean it was like in the movie Ghost when Sam's spirit enters Whoopie Goldberg's body and she lurches. You know what I mean?

And Adam? I figured he would be excited. And you know what? I think he might have been had he been awake.

But there he was - sleeping soundly with his back to me. He's been so tired lately. He puts in a lot of hours at work.

I made two attempts to wake him and he never budged so.....

well......

maybe today??

This morning before he left I told him I'd tried to wake him and he said, "Was that you?"

WAS THAT ME?

Heck yes, it was me.... "who do you THINK it was?"

So anyhow.... my master's program is calling me this afternoon. I have a paper to write. And after that Adam wants me to help him work on a workshop he has to present next weekend. And I would LOVE to go to a festival that's not too far from here.

After that?

Maybe, but I'll have to remember where I put that libido. It's gone as quick as it appeared but I don't think it went too far this time.