Tonight?

I've been thinking.

I don't think it's all me.

For a while I've thought it was my weight, the surgery, and all that goes with both.

Call me PK if you want. I joined the gym. Actually WE REjoined the gym. We had a membership for quite sometime but when the weight got to be too much and was causing more pain than I could handle, we canceled it. Now that I'm pain free and losing weight, it's nice to go back there. Anyhow, as I walked there this morning I thought about last night. Adam had been making threats and promises but when we went to bed.... nothing. Actually he mentioned it and I said "how about tomorrow?"

He seemed relieved.

We had to go out of town this afternoon. The drive gave us a chance to discuss it. We both want back what we once had. It's just not happening. Again, he's made threats and promises for tonight after the game. We'll see but I'm not holding my breath.

And PK?? She's such a good friend to have around.... read this email I got from her today....

And just one more thing from your own personal Ann Landers. Meet the guy half way. I mean you were not exactly in the mood to leap out of bed this morning and go for a cold walk. But you did it because the pup wanted and needed you to. And because you love the dog you probably did it only slightly grumbling. I am guessing that you love Adam as much or more than the pup. And I can tell you making love in a nice warm bed with a nice hot bottom is better than a cold walk and anticipating scooping poop! Now Adam should not get less from you just because he is enough of a gentleman not to pee on the carpet if you say no!

Gee aren't you glad you have me around for such sound advice??

Isn't she great? I'm so glad to have her around because she makes more sense than anyone I've ever known.

So anyhow... the bottom line is that life's just been nuts ever since we got the pup. He seems to be like having a small child in the house. As much as we love him, he does cramp our style somewhat. So anyhow... tonight had better be the night. If it's not, it's not my fault.