Upcoming Surgery

There's a lot going on.

First off, take a minute and notice the above Ticker. Yes, I know. I'm disclosing my weight which is very hard to do however, I wanted to find a way to share my progress with you. My starting weight is what I weighed on May 11 of this year. I've managed to lose 35 pounds by making a few dietary changes. I cut out diet pop and all white carbs... bread, rice, potatoes, pasta.

Anyhow, I will be updating the ticker once a week so stay tuned and watch me melt!!!!

My back no longer hurts. People are coming right out and asking why- if my back isn't hurting and I've lost that much weight - am I still going through with the surgery.

Easy.

There's a number of reasons.

I need the permanence that the surgery will provide. I want/need that continual reminder nagging at me to watch what I eat and more importantly HOW MUCH I eat.

My weight has gone up and down my whole life. Mostly it's been up. When it has come down it's never stayed down for long and I'm tired of being a yo yo. I know. This surgery will NOT stop that but it will help ME to stop it.

Adam and I talked about it. We're celebrating our 26th anniversary in a couple weeks. We know each other well and we both agree that if I do not follow through with the surgery now, I will only gain the weight back and then some.... and be kicking myself for not having followed through.

Another thing..... HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOO.... I still have over 100 pounds to lose. That's a lot. I need HELP. I do not have it in me to stay the course without the aid of this procedure.

So that's pretty much why I'm still going through with it.

I've been having some trouble sleeping. Adam said I even talked in my sleep the other night. I NEVER talk in my sleep. He said he and the pup both sat up and looked at me. He couldn't understand what I was saying though. I told him I wasn't surprised. I dreamed I was at work. A coworker and I were looking in this big mirror and he's saying "I'm telling you, there are ghosts living in that mirror. Look harder." And then these white love seats came into view inside the mirror but I couldn't see the ghosts.

Damn Harry Potter.

Yes, I got the books. I'm only on the first one but I know it is why I had that dream.

Offspring #1 is home. She lives about 2 hours west of the Mississippi. She flew in. Picked her up at the airport late last night. She's here till next Wednesday. I feel bad that she took the time off work to come home for my surgery. I didn't ask her to. She wanted to. On the way home from the airport I told her all that. She said, "shut up." So I did. It wasn't in a mean way or anything. It was in a "mom, I love you" way.

I found a blender which crushes ice and is a food processor too. I'm in my glory. It crushes ice to the consistency of a smoothie that you can only buy at the mall. How cool is that? Protein smoothies!! I had one this morning. Awesome!!! And the pitcher part of the blender, is big, fat and made of glass. Very sturdy, durable. I like it a lot.

Sunday is a big day. Clear liquids, dulcolax, and enemas for me. Yeeee hawwwww. I can hardly contain the excitement!!! Then on Monday we have to be at the hospital by 7:30 a.m. and my surgery is scheduled for 10:30. I don't think I'll be back on before that since I want to spend time with my family these next few days and there's a lot to do. So you all take care!! And keep checking back.

I'll have PK bust in here and post updates next week, if she wouldn't mind and I will update myself ASAP. I'm due home from the hospital one week from today if all goes well. All warm, fuzzy, good thoughts and prayers are appreciated!! I love you all!!!