Thursday, May 22, 2008

Adam's Home

This morning, I went in to work for a brief time. I wanted to take care of a few things and then make the 2 hour drive from work to the hospital where Adam had been admitted.

I called him as I left work to let him know I was on my
way but it would be a while. At that time his doctors had yet to be in but by the time I got to him he was dressed and waiting. He'd been discharged about a half hour later.

He slept most of the way home. Then he slept some more when we got home. He's hardly left the couch. He's eating okay. He wanted a homemade waffle earlier and ate almost all of it. Then for supper I made beef, broccoli, and noodles. He ate pretty
well.

The diagnosis is that he has had a complex migraine. It's not been funny. They tried a variety of drugs to alleviate his pain. Finally when they started him on steroids it all began to turn around.

He should be back to normal very soon but in the meantime they want him home from work another 5 to 7 days. I am guessing he'll go back after my surgery is over
with. It's not going to hurt him one bit to sit on his butt and watch TV for a week. I told him he's grounded. No phone. No truck keys.

He didn't argue. He knows. God's telling him to slow down some.

I'm glad.

AND the traffic and city were much more kind to me today. No problems at all. Here's a picture though of the city that ticked me off last night. Anyone out there recognize it? Live there? Wanna talk? LOL Please don't identify it here on my site if you recognize it. Email me.

So that's the update... and oh, yeah... we're still THRILLED to have a grand baby on the way.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

You Don't Know Me

You.

You know who you are.

And I wonder if you knew me, if you would have still been so cruel.

After struggling to find our way out of your city last night we were relieved after a half hour of going in circles to have finally found the highway we needed. It was especially frustrating to approach intersection after intersection with traffic lights not working. We watched for a cue from one of the policemen before venturing into each intersection each time.

We listened as one of your finest yelled at one who tried to sneak through before you told her to do so. I think she thought it was a four way stop because your finest would get a stream of traffic going then step out of the intersection onto the curb. With no one there in view, how was she to know you were directing her? Did your finest really have to shout at her like that?

And then today, I was the one behind the wheel struggling to find my way out of your city. Again, the police stood on the curb stepping out only to wave on a different stream of traffic. As I sat at one of these intersections I only began to notice it was taking a very long time for one of your three police to switch lines of traffic. It was right then it dawned on me that your finest at this particular intersection were expecting us to treat it as a four way stop. I have no problem with that but was caught off guard after watching a police officer scream at a woman who did just that last night... treat it as a four way stop, that is.

So just as I gathered my wits I looked to my left where one of your officers screamed at me, asking "What are you going to do?"

In reality I had no clue what to do. I'm a stranger in your city and my GPS kept insisting I head the wrong way on your one way streets.

And I wonder...

If your officer knew why I was in your city, would she have yelled at me in such a demeaning way? If she knew how worried I am about my husband right now... if she knew how frustrated I was trying to find my way... would she still have yelled? Would she have cared that her demeaning screech only served to pour salt on the fresh wounds I'm enduring.

And you....

Yes, you....

If YOU knew how that officer had just been so impatient with me... if you knew why I was there to begin with... if you knew my fear and frustration for my husbands health and well being... if you knew how close to the edge of a total mental collapse that I am, would you have sped up like that when I tried to get into the lane you were in? Would you have laid on your horn and not let up from it like you did?

Would you have cared that I was hurt, lost, confused, frustrated, angry, and lonely? Would you have eased up on the horn? The gestures?

What I wanted to do was stop my car right there and block your path completely. I wanted to make you just wait while I cried out the anger and frustration.

Instead I felt my anger rising, my frustration mounting.

Yup. I stuck my hand out the window and flipped you off. Brake checked you a few times too.

You didn't seem to care though cuz you kept your hand on your horn, and your other hand out the window flipping me off.

I guess you didn't see how very much I needed you to give me a break and not add to my already very full plate.

I know you don't know me. I know you don't know everything I'm up against right now. That's okay. I just wonder if it would have mattered. Or have we - as a society - sunk so low that we have quit caring when others need a break and a boost.

When did we start to hate each other so deeply?

Craziness

Life's been, as I said in my last post, crazy. It's all been a good crazy and I'm thankful for all the changes. In a matter of one week our oldest child relocated much much closer to home, our middle child announced that she's carrying our very first precious grandchild, and our youngest graduated from college.

It doesn't get any better than all that!!

Hectic craziness has become a way of life but every now and again I do believe the Good Lord and God of this universe slows us down.

That's exactly what has happened to Adam.

Here's the sequence of events as they happened yesterday....

Adam hadn't been feeling well. Monday evening he was lightheaded and just not feeling good. We thought he was tired from the crazy weekend of moving. He'd flown to our daughter's former location and drove the moving truck for her on Friday. On Saturday we all met at her new location and helped move her in to her new apartment. We thought he was just tired.

Yesterday someone had to take him from work to his doc cuz he wasn't doing well at all.

His doc had him taken by ambulance to our local hospital.

That's when I got the call at work and left immediately to go be with him.

They were suspicious of a stroke. I was scared to death as he has 4 relatives who have died young from a hereditary disease.

He was later transferred by ambulance to a hospital 90 minutes from home.

A neurologist saw him and believes it's one of three things:

1) Bleeding on the brain - not likely however as it would have shown in the cat scan at the dumpy little local band aid station that calls itself a hospital.

2) A stroke or mini-stroke (TIA) but she doesn't believe that it's that either.

And finally... she's leaning toward

3) a complex migraine which mimics a stroke.

We're relieved by that however, I'm not convinced that it's not the onset of the family cursed disease. I will be watching him like a hawk. I know he's scared. I am too. More than likely it is just a type of migraine and we can breathe a sigh of relief soon and get on with our lives.

Those of you who pray ... we need you now!!! Pray that he is just being slowed down and heeds the warning!!!!!

We're still thrilled about all the other wonderful things that have gone on so when you're praying throw in a thanks for all that!!!

Saturday, May 17, 2008

A Big Ol' Day

First off, I want to apologize for not answering comments very faithfully these days. Life's crazy. Time is a rare luxury. As much as I want to address comments I just don't have time right now. I'm so sorry.

It's been a good day. I'm tired but it's a good tired.

Two events have taken place. First of all offspring number one relocated today. Instead of being 16 hours from home, she's now just 5 1/2. We're thrilled about that but not just because she's going to be closer but also because she's landed her dream job and we know she's going to do great. Now we're just hoping she'll meet someone but that's not the most important thing here.

We moved her into a nice apartment. The whole family came for the event. The day got better as it came to an end. I didn't think things could be better than having #1 closer to us but guess what? #2 and her husband told us tonight that we're going to be - for the very first time - grandparents.

We're thrilled beyond words. And her sisters are so excited at the idea of being aunts.

Yup.

It's been a big ol' day. I doubt any of us forget it anytime soon.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Told Him

Well.

I did it.

Those of you who have been reading here forever and ever might not like what it is that I did.

But still... I did it.

It's frustrating. You know?

So what did I do?

Well ..................

The other day Adam cracked me on the rear and then I did it.

I told him.....

It wasn't like it was a surprise to him. Not at all. He already knew.

Still... he keeps trying... WE keep trying.

So what did I do?

It's not big deal really.

I told him.

I told him that spanking just doesn't do anything for me anymore. For that matter NOTHING does it for me. We haven't done a thing sexually or otherwise since we were on our last road trip.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........

That was seven - SEVEN weeks ago.

It's not there and yes, I know this ain't right.

I'm just updating you. That's all.

I don't know if we'll ever get back to where we were. I don't know how or when or where or why we lost it but we did. Surely it will come back on its own one of these days and when it does, I'm sure I'll have plenty to blog about. In the meantime.... well... I'm not going anywhere. I'll still post here and there when the spirit moves me just for the simple reason that I like to write.Besides that, I love you all and don't want to give up the friendships I've made here.

Anyhow..................

I did it. I told him. It just doesn't do anything for me right now. It will again someday. I have faith. In the meantime, I guess I just wanted to let you know that nothing has changed.... not yet.

So ..............


Thursday, May 8, 2008

Top Ten Occupants of My Mind

Life's busy.

I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I guess it's good. I'm confident that, even though things are stressful at the moment, they will turn out good in the end.

Here's what's happening:

1 - Tomorrow night we are driving 5 hours from home so that we can be there when offspring #3 graduates on Saturday. Finally - no kids in college any longer.

2 - Next weekend we are moving offspring #1. Instead of being 800 miles from home as she's been the past 8 years she will now be just 300 miles from home. How cool is that? We'll be seeing much more of her this way as she can come home on those long 3 day weekends and such.

What's interesting here is that as we move offspring #3 back home, we're moving offspring #1 to the state which #3 is leaving. Adam will fly to where she is now to drive the truck for her. The rest of us - myself, #3, #2, and #2's hubby - will drive and meet them at the new place which is closer to home.

3 - The weekend after that we will be home. My plan is to relax after these two insane weekends.

4 - The weekend after that I am having some fairly major surgery. I have a hernia the size of a sugar baby watermelon. They are repairing it and then tightening my belly by removing some skin. I'll have to wear two drains. One will come out after two weeks. The other in 3 to 4 weeks. I'm not looking forward to that but will be glad when it's over.

5 - I think I might get a tattoo.

6 - American Idol is exciting this year. Both Davids are awesome. Then there's Syesha. That girl has come a long way. She was quite unnoticeable in the beginning. Lately she's been pouring it on. Has anyone ever been in the bottom 2 or 3 so many times then made it this far? Amazing, that girl is.

7 - No road trip for us this year. I mean - REALLY - have you seen the price of gas? It was $3.79 when I got back to town after work today. Takes me 2 and a 1/2 gallons just to go to work each day.

8 - On the other hand, we're taking a plane trip this year. It's actually a business trip for Adam however we're going to turn it into pleasure also by staying a couple days after the business part of it is over. We're going to see some sites but better yet - we're going to spend a couple days with some friends that I'm dying to see.

9 - Next week our 100 year old house is getting sided. It's been a long, long time since it was painted. It's a mess. The paint is peeling but what's worse is that we had some wicked bad ice storms this winter. The last one brought down a 25 foot section of spouting. It's all getting fixed.

And saving the best for last......

10 - PK is coming to visit!!!!!!! And she's bringing MOLLY!!! The jury is still out on Nick coming along. I'm going to make them promise that if he doesn't come this time then he has to come next tim
e.


Well, that's it in a nut shell. Keep PK entertained on the weekends for me this month but don't let her forget me!!!