It's Awful . . . . .

WARNING: SERIOUS VENTING AND RANTING AHEAD

I got up just long enough to post this.... Now I'm going back to bed. I'm okay. Adam should be home soon and life will get back to normal. Until then, I'm waiting. No cheetos or cheesecake for me but could someone pass the sunchips? The Garden Salsa ones, please?

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Okay actually, I haven't spent all this time in bed. I've warned you ... never take me seriously. The truth of the matter is that I had to get up and go to work this morning. Then I came home and posted the above little diddy which was me just having fun.

Fun time is over.

This isn't fun or funny any longer.

Yes, Adam's been working on a big project since last Thursday. He spent 3 or 4 nights away from home but then started missing his own bed so he's been coming home at night BUT he hasn't gotten in until very late. Then he sleeps 3 or 4 hours and goes back and does it all again. The project will be done soon. Finally. Thank God but truthfully, I'm so frustrated I could scream.

See, everywhere we go these days Adam is recognized locally. It takes 3 hours if he goes in the store with me. We used to love to shop and do things together. Now I usually just leave him talking with someone and go ahead of him.

Tonight he wanted me on the project site so I could have dinner with him. I went. He couldn't break away for dinner. He honestly couldn't. People needed him with legitimate questions. I finally said screw dinner and I left.

He called me twice. I was crying and hung up on him the first time. I understand that he has to do what he has to do but I am so unimportant to him right now that it hurts more than I can actually handle. I'm mad at him. I don't like feeling this way but after being on the site for an hour and people were still coming up to him and asking things.....

Finally as the crowd thinned out, we were finally headed for supper. But yet again someone comes up to him saying "ya got a minute?" A minute doesn't mean a minute to these people. That's when I walked.

I just wanted supper with him without 50 million people pulling him from me. It's been over a week. I'm at the end of my rope. Oh sure, it could be worse.

I don't know how the wives of our servicemen stand their men being gone so long. That would be horrible. At least they know though that their men would rather be home with them. I don't have that luxury. I'm competing with his job and to be honest, I don't think I can any more. I see the look in his eye. I hear what he talks about... it's never us anymore.... just his work and the people there.

The other day on my way home from work I called to tell him something. He went on and on about his day for a few minutes and then someone needed him... and he had to go.

I don't mean to sound so needy and selfish. I'm not really. Believe it or not there was a time when he clung so tightly to me that I would have killed for moments such as this. I'm glad he's so very happy with his life. I'm just tired of not being part of it. And I don't WANT to be a part of his work life any more than he wants to be a part of mine. It's good that we both have jobs we love. I just never thought his would take up ALL his time. And what do I do?

Get on this friggin' computer talking to a bunch of strangers. I've neglected other things in my life just to be on here.... and spanking? Well honestly that mood is certainly gone. I'm hurting enough that I honestly just don't want him touching me right now.

And what's worse here is that I'm diabetic. I'm hungry. I forgot my meds before work today so I'm a shaky mess right now.

I think I'll order a pizza. I can do that online and have it delivered right to the front door without having to talk to anyone.

And then? I probably will go back to bed... for real. There's nothing else to do around here.

Sometimes ya just gotta vent.

It's getting worse.....

I'm staying in bed till Adam comes home and spanks me.

The Nest is TOOOO Empty

I miss him. I don't feel much like myself so it's hard to come up with an idea to write about. I'll be back to normal soon though. He can't stay away forever. Well he could... but he won't. And when he comes home, I'll give him a day or two to rest up then I'm handing him every spanking implement I can get my hands on. It's been way too long!!

He's been coming home to sleep but I'm long since passed out when he comes in. Then we both get up around 5 and rush out the door. I miss climbing into bed with him. I miss him holding me. I miss him touching me. Loving me. Spanking me. The crop is idle. And I'm getting a bit greedy and needy.

The little dude up above with the big hand makes me smile. Adam's hand can really hurt my rear but I think sometimes he ends up hurting his hand more than it hurts me. That can't be any fun. That's part of the reason - I suppose - that we like the crop so much.

Anyhow, I wanted an empty nest. I longed for it. I've enjoyed it. But this is ridiculous. Be careful what you wish for. If you get it, it might be more than you wanted. I certainly don't mind having no children in the house but I sure do want Adam back.

Soon. He'll be home soon. I still don't know when but it won't be soon enough. I'm slipping into a funk here. Remember Grace being down last week? That's how I'm starting to feel. I miss Adam. I want to just climb into bed and stay there.

Yeah that's it. I'm going to bed early.

And the Survey Says..... Quiz #2 Answers

To see the results of how you all voted, go here.

Click on the one you thought was correct....

1. "True to form my former self never said a word assuming any good husband would read my mind and know what I was feeling."

a) Tiggr

b) Elis

c) Grace

d) SuZQ


2. "Stud? Are we horny today?"

a) Tiggr

b) Wind

c) SnN

d) Sparkle


3. "It wasn't terribly clear to me that the spreader bar was included with the ankle cuffs..."

a) Sparkle

b) Sky

c) Tiggr

d) Lily


4. "I am more connected to my being than I've been in a very long time. I'm proud of myself for my accomplishments."

a) SnN

b) Grace

c) SuZQ

d) CeeCi


5. "I laughed and laughed, I hugged his neck, and I felt so much relief."

a) Grace

b) CeeCi

c) Cassie

d) SnN


6. "Call it hormones. Call it the approach of a full moon."

a) Bonnie

b) Sky

c) Theresa

d) Sparkle


7. "....to conform to or attempt to compete with the slim-waisted, bountiful-boobed, long-legged model-types..."

a) Elis

b) Tiggr

c) Eva

d) Sky


8. "I'm sorry but I could just see this man on a mission..."

a) Elis

b) Tiggr

c) Theresa

d) Cassie



Well? How'd you do this time??

Magnificent M

Is it Tuesday already??

Magnet - fun to play with. I have these heavy duty ones that came with a set of coins from across the pond cuz our American money isn't magnetic. Way cool.

Moon - fun to look at out my bedroom window after Adam has tanned my bottom and done other wonderful things to my body.

Monkey - fun to watch in the zoo. One made a pass at Adam once. Blew him kisses and everything.

Mask - fun to wear on Halloween although they kind of make me claustrophobic. I just like seeing everyone else dress up.

Monday - fun to just get it over with so that the weekend comes back around.

Money - fun to find when you are down to your last couple of bucks. I found $5 I didn't know I had today. That was fun. I probably had $100 or so in my wallet but that unexpected $5 made my day.

Mail - fun to receive unless it's bills then I don't really like it but yesterday I got some fun mail. Remember my "oh my God" hitachi wand post? Yeah well yesterday these arrived: Click here if you dare.

My place of employment - fun place to be most of the time (yes its name starts with M). I am not only grateful for my job, I also happen to like it.

Men - fun to ... well you know... just one particular man though.

Matrimony - fun to be a part of for 25 wonderful years with the most wonderful man in the world who hasn't spanked me lately... or made love to me... ummm ... wait... he's quickly losing status here but matrimony is still really fun.

Magazine - fun to read on a rainy day if it's not some boring national geographic or something.

Mother - fun to remember because mine died when I was 16. My mom was ornery though. She used to play jokes on my dad. They were both teachers. One night he fell asleep on the couch. She was grading papers. She couldn't resist the urge and took a black sharpie and colored his toenails permanently black. The next morning he died but we never ever quit laughing about that. She also used to tell him there was a long distance call for him when he was in the shower. Not. Okay I could talk about mom (and dad) all day. I'll stop.

March - fun because it's Adam's birthday month and spring is springing up and school's almost out and the roads aren't so slippery and icy anymore.

Math - fun. period. It is, too. Get over it.

Morning - fun because a new day has just begun and that's when I am at my very best.

Motor - fun because it moves things... like cars... and lawn mowers...

Music - fun to sing along with even though I can't sing and if I started you all would beg me to please stop and I would... actually I'd never sing in front of you to begin with. I could be jailed for torturing you.

Mouse - fun to have on the computer cuz if we didn't have mice then we'd have to do everything with the keyboard and that would be totally frustrating.

M&M's - fun because they're chocolate and my guess is that we all like stuff that melts in our mouths.

Mouth - fun for lots of things... like eating chocolate.

M is just a fun letter....

Oral Sex, A.D.D., and Boredom

I'm finding myself extremely bored because Adam is away. He will be home soon enough, I know but in the meantime I've been struggling for things to do in order to alleviate the boredom. Ten days feels like a long time.

I've been blogging for nearly 3 months now and if you've been reading along you probably have pretty much figured out that my mind goes in many different directions. I confess, I do indeed have adult A.D.D. I can get off topic easily without even knowing it at the time but I can also come back to the topic easily. It's a nice trait to have .... sometimes.

At any rate this is an off topic post. I did a google image search for "oral sex." I just have to show you some of the things that came up. Before I do though, the reason I thought to do this particular search is because I discovered this first picture on someone's blog and just wondered if there was more good stuff out there..... enjoy... this is definitely me just having fun.



Oral sex. Get it?? Hahahahahaha























I'm thinkin' there's just not a whole lot of commentary I could add to this.












I reckon this here's some pretty noteworthy advice.














I was well into adulthood before I realized this doesn't qualify as oral sex.












I have no idea why this one would show up in an oral sex search. I do think it's rather lovely though so I decided to include it. Painted on tattoos? Or real? Looks painted to me.














What is a sketch of a dude in a 10-gallon cowboy hat doing in my google search??












Ahhhh ha ha ha ha ha ahhhh ha ha ha ha

Should have known I couldn't get through dozens of pages of images on oral sex without billy boy showin' up.













I'm not.. I repeat not into anything with animals. I just thought this was funnier than heck. You may have to click on the photo to see that itty bitty caption at the top. Better yet, I'll just tell ya what it says ... "Bill, Let's call her Monica."


And this concludes the oral sex tour. Please stay seated until we come to a complete stop and then exit to your left. And PLEASE: Resist the urge to explain the cowboy hat to me.

Blogger Quiz #2

It's another quiz!!! Pick who you believe said each quote and don't forget to click "submit" at the end.


A number of you also said you forgot your answers last week between Sunday and Wednesday so you may want to write them down to check later. Actually I'll post the answers late Tuesday sometime.

Who Said That?

1. "True to form my former self never said a word assuming any good husband would read my mind and know what I was feeling." - Please Select -TiggrElisGraceSuZQ 2. "Stud? Are we horny today?" - Please Select -TiggrWindSnNSparkle 3. "It wasn't terribly clear to me that the spreader bar was included with the ankle cuffs..." - Please Select -SparkleSkyTiggrLily 4. "I am more connected to my being than I've been in a very long time. I'm proud of myself for my accomplishments." - Please Select -SnNGraceSuZQCeeCi 5. "I laughed and laughed, I hugged his neck, and I felt so much relief." - Please Select -GraceCeeCiCassieSnN 6. "Call it hormones. Call it the approach of a full moon." - Please Select -BonnieSkyTheresaSparkle 7. "....to conform to or attempt to compete with the slim-waisted, bountiful-boobed, long-legged model-types..." - Please Select -ElisTiggrEvaSky 8. "I'm sorry but I could just see this man on a mission..." - Please Select -ElisTiggrTheresaCassie Current Results