Tonight?

I've been thinking.

I don't think it's all me.

For a while I've thought it was my weight, the surgery, and all that goes with both.

Call me PK if you want. I joined the gym. Actually WE REjoined the gym. We had a membership for quite sometime but when the weight got to be too much and was causing more pain than I could handle, we canceled it. Now that I'm pain free and losing weight, it's nice to go back there. Anyhow, as I walked there this morning I thought about last night. Adam had been making threats and promises but when we went to bed.... nothing. Actually he mentioned it and I said "how about tomorrow?"

He seemed relieved.

We had to go out of town this afternoon. The drive gave us a chance to discuss it. We both want back what we once had. It's just not happening. Again, he's made threats and promises for tonight after the game. We'll see but I'm not holding my breath.

And PK?? She's such a good friend to have around.... read this email I got from her today....

And just one more thing from your own personal Ann Landers. Meet the guy half way. I mean you were not exactly in the mood to leap out of bed this morning and go for a cold walk. But you did it because the pup wanted and needed you to. And because you love the dog you probably did it only slightly grumbling. I am guessing that you love Adam as much or more than the pup. And I can tell you making love in a nice warm bed with a nice hot bottom is better than a cold walk and anticipating scooping poop! Now Adam should not get less from you just because he is enough of a gentleman not to pee on the carpet if you say no!

Gee aren't you glad you have me around for such sound advice??

Isn't she great? I'm so glad to have her around because she makes more sense than anyone I've ever known.

So anyhow... the bottom line is that life's just been nuts ever since we got the pup. He seems to be like having a small child in the house. As much as we love him, he does cramp our style somewhat. So anyhow... tonight had better be the night. If it's not, it's not my fault.

Another Stolen Meme

Yup. I stole it right from Cassie's Space and she stole it from Theresa....

Oh, and the ticker tumbled a bit... it was at 209. And I've been stuck at 206.5 since Monday. I'm ready to drop below 200 any day now!!



1.Do you like cheese? Yup. Most kinds but I am limited to the low fat stuff since surgery.

2. Have you ever done heroin? No.

3. Do you own a bike? No

4. What are you doing tonight? Went to dinner with Adam.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? I used to but the past few years I've had so many appointments that it feels abnormal to have a week without one.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? If they are cooked over an open fire and there's chopped onions to put on them, they are fantastic. Of course though it will be a while yet before I can have one again.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? I like the Manheim Steamroller Christmas music.


8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee but of course I have restrictions there also. Decaf.

9. Can you do push ups? I'm with Cassie ~ Why on earth would I want to do a push up?

10. Is your bathroom clean? Usually but at the moment it's a bit sloppy. Time has been a serious issue this week!

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? The wedding band I just recently was able to slide back onto my finger where it belongs.

12. Do you have friends? What kind of question is that? If you're reading this, you are counted amongst them!

13. Do you miss someone? Not really. In this day and age of cell phones and email it's easy to stay in touch.

14. Middle name? Lynn

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.

• Memes are a lazy way to blog
• I want some ice cream... just a little scoop... no sugar added vanilla with some sugar free strawberry sundae topping stirred in.
• I wish it was a week ago today and I was with PK again.
  

16. Name the last 3 things you bought.

• Items for a gift basket.
• Some DVD's.
• Groceries.
  

17. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.

• Decaf coffee
• crystal lite
• water

(I'm still mourning the loss of my diet pepsi)

18. Current worry? Who? Me? Worry?

19. Current hate? Disrespect from students.

20. Favorite place to be? Home.

21. How did you ring in the New Year? With the kids and a few close friends.

22. Where would you like to go? Back to PK's house.

23. Are you hungry? No.

24. What/who made you laugh last? Adam of course!

25. Do you own slippers? Yes, they are pink.

26. What shirt are you wearing? It's a T-shirt representing my school's football team.

27. Do you burn or tan? Tan.

28. Favorite color? Don't have one.

29. Would you be a pirate? Aren't they thieves? No thanks.

30. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't. My singing could damage the pup's eardrums.

31. What did you have for lunch? Half of a tortilla with low fat turkey in it and 3 oz. of chicken chilli.

32. Name someone who has changed your life. Adam and my kids.


33. What's in your pocket right now? My cell phone and a ziploc baggie for when I walk the pup. (He didn't go this last walk so I still have the bag).

34. Best bed sheets as a child? Gosh, I don't remember.

35. Worst injury you've ever had? A broken arm that had to be in traction every night for a couple months. It was a nasty break right below the shoulder and the bones overlapped and had to be pulled apart by traction.

36. How many TVs do you have in your house? Four.

37. Who is your loudest friend? Mary.

38. Who is your most silent friend? Joanne.

39. Do you wish on shooting stars? I probably should but I don't.

40. What is your favorite movie? Oh geeze.. just one? I'm not much of a movie person but the ones I love, I REALLY love.... let's see... Ghost, A Beautiful Mind, Mrs. Winterbourn, Sister Act I and II, Anything with Julia Roberts....

41. What is your favorite candy? CHOCOLATE!!!!

42. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Let's see what I can remember... If... You know.. if a picture paints a thousand words.... Misty... You light up my life... The Rose... there were more but I can't remember.

43. What song do you want played at your funeral? I Hope You Dance.

44. What were you doing at 12 AM last night? Sleeping.

45. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Let's just get up and get this day over with.

Just a Ramble

My twin is right. The weekend was fantastic. Life in general is much lighter. If you're sick and tired of hearing about my weight loss, that's okay. I don't mind if you go somewhere else and skip over this post.

If you, however, feel the need to lose some weight, are interested in the surgery I had, or just interested in hearing more then stick around.

Yes, indeed. Life is lighter. I find myself wanting to do things just because I can!! And do you remember the post when I was so hurt by the waitress who made the comment that I would not fit in the booth at the pancake place? HA!! Let me tell you what.... IN HER FACE.

PK can vouch for me here... I fit in the freakin' stinkin' tiny booth at Burger King now.

Okay, honestly... It's not about the weight loss. It's not about how I look compared to how I did look. It's not even about fitting into a restaurant booth because in reality, I can't eat in those places anymore so where's the victory, really?

It's about being pain free. It's about being able to hike up a mountain with my best female friend in the world. It's about going down into somewhat of a gully knowing it was okay, that you'd be able to get out of there with no problem. And all of this has happened in such a short amount of time. In just four months I've lost 85 or so pounds - 40 were presurgery while the rest were since. And yes, I still have about 50-55 to go. I just keep feeling better and better. I don't want to go back in time. I don't want to ever weight 292 pounds again.

Am I glad I had the surgery? MOST of the time, yes. Sure it has it's moments when I feel sick from something I ate or feel frustrated because I just can't eat much but NOTHING tastes as good as what I feel these days. I wish I could show you all the pictures that PK is talking about... the pain is honestly gone from my face.... even I can see the difference.

Anyhow, I'm just rambling. What I need to do is go walk the pup before Adam gets home here in a bit... and btw, I'm almost positive that PK's dog learned that spanking thing from her and Nick but I don't care. The pup behaved himself knowing what might be in store if he acted up!!

Wikipedia Blog Meme Game

Just cuz I have nuttin' to blog about....

Wikipedia Blog Meme Game
April 30th, 2006 by striatic 1. Go to Wikipedia.
2. In the Search box, type your birth month and day (but not year).
3. Choose three events that happened on your birthday.
4. Choose two important birthdays and one interesting death.
5. Post it.

Events:

• 1973 - A Brazilian Boeing 707 crashes near Paris on approach to Orly Airport, killing 123 people of the 134 on-board.
• 1977 - Martin Luther King is posthumously awarded the Medal of Freedom.
• 2006 - 209 people are killed in a series of bomb attacks in Mumbai, India.

Birthdays

• 1767 - John Quincy Adams, President of the United States (d. 1848)
• 1924 - Brett Somers, Canadian-born actress (d. 2007)

Death

• 2007 - Lady Bird Johnson, First Lady of the United States (b. 1912)

Wonderful Weekend!!

What a weekend!! It went by too darn fast!

We had a blast and I have to tell you... there is NO ONE on this planet like my twin and her family. They are a comfortable fit and we so enjoy being with them.

The ride there with the pup went by fast. He was perfect for us which only makes us love him more. Okay, so he got a bit ornery at PK's house... and a bit destructive. Let's see... he peed on the floor but just once and it was because he got excited when PK got home from work the day we arrived. And then he chewed up a chapstick and a pen. Other than that, he behaved himself quite nicely for a little guy.

We had a ball seeing the sites on Saturday. Nick is one terrific tour guide!!! Among other things, we got to trek up a pretty good size mountain and the view from the top absolutely took my breath away!!







I dunno. I think everyone should have friends who fit like this. Comfortable. Comforting. There's really no words to describe it or THEM.

PK~ I love you twin! It amazes me that our paths crossed as they did, how they did, when they did!! You and your family mean the world to us! Thank you for an awesome weekend!!

It's Paul's Day!!!!!

Happy Birthday, Paul!!!
Know that you are loved!!!!

L.O.L. (Love Our Lurkers)

Okay. I admit it.

This hasn't had the appearance of a spanko blog for quite some time. That's only because I've been preoccupied with so much else... surgery... weight loss... work.

But still.... I'm one of 'em. Honest, I am.

And one day this blog will return to what it once was. The spirit will move me. I just know it. In the meantime, I see you.

Yes you....

I check my stats regularly and it amazes me that many of you still come around. Who are you, anyhow? No, I don't mean in REAL life but here in blogland.

Who are you?

Are you a spanker? Spankee? Switch?

What's your implement of choice? A crop? A flogger? A hand?

So anyhow, today is "Love our Lurkers Day" here in spanko blogland and it would be so very nice to hear from some new blood. So go ahead... Lurkers, be brave!! Leave a comment!! Say as much or as little as you feel comfortable with but please, say something!!!

I'm off spending the weekend with PK but I'll check in here and there.

I will be watching for you!

And yes, you matter to all of us out here!!